to those of you that know me plz dont come up to me to talk about this. the reason its hear is so i dont have to talk about it. i am not in a good place right now. my head is somewhere it should not be… why is it i feel wrong for this? why cant he see that he has the life i wish to live? why am i so dependant on her? why is it that i do this to myself? why is it the person i need never needs me? why cant my heart just realize this? why cant i just get through this? why do i hate being me? why cant i sleep or eat right? i just dont get it….if i have hurt anyone, im sorry im truely truely sorry.just what is wrong with me? why cant i just wake up in the morning just to wake up, just for the sake of the day? why does everything i do have the same reason, the same dfrive as everything else i do in life… i hate being this dependant! im like a love sick puppy… i dont regret liking her, i just wish i didnt make her the reason for everything i do… why didnt i learn from the first time? she was my everything, and she left me as easy as that… she broke myheart in ways that just thinking about makes me feel so hollow inside and make my eyes swell… the only time i found out that she loved me was from a drunk phone call one night and after that…it was as if as nothing ever happened… i loved her, i saw my future with her… my kids… it was so clear… and now im in the same situation, i love someone, and need them, but im sure they could live quite easy without me… and my friend… he says i am not his friend… that i dont talk to him like i used to, that he feels that im distancing myself from him… yet he will never tell me that in person, or by phone, or by text… he thinks that im the one with all the luck… little does he know that would trade places with him in an instant.. that he what i would love to be…he has what i would kill to have…
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the fully exposed heart
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why is loving someone so hard these days? i know something wirth getting is worth fighting for…. but sometimes you feel like throwing in the towel, at least i do from time to time… but then again i, and for lack of a beter word im goin to say imprinted on her… this wolf cant let go… not because i cant, but because shes the girl worth fighting for…
My best friend’s lover. :D *sex*
What if she does love you? What if she's a creep or a liar? What if you don't really love her you love the idea of her?
Anonymous
thats a risk that shes worth taking
I luff juuu! How much do you luff me?
You say you don’t want to lose or have your best friend taken away, because he’s yours… what about the girl that I lost… the one who said she cared too
i just want you to knw. while ur wanting her, im wanting him.
Anonymous
And i just wonder all the time, do you need me, as much as i need you?
I'm almost positive I know who it is you talk about. Honestly, it saddens me. Not because I want you, but because I might know the situation.
Anonymous
well whats the purpose of being anonymous, if you dont mind me askin?
wow, she must be someone really special for u to be all torn up about her, but dnt worry, itll all work out in the end.
Anonymous
that is a giant understatement, you have no idea… but its not goin to work out… but god knows a part of me wants it too…..
wow….
its amazing how i cant stop thinking of you… i cant even look at another girl any more, they never meet the standards you have set. when i see another girl the first thing i think is “this doesnt girl have what she has” or “she has it so much better than this girl”… i see nothing but her… nothing ever really matters… she once asked me ” with all this shit and you know i have a boyfriend, why do you stick around, you diserve better… i looked her dead in the eyes and told her two inches from her face ” you make me happy like no one ever has, im only happy with you around, just everything you do makes me love you just a bit more, and how is it what you know what i deserve? if you ask me i honestly dont even deseve you, and thats the honest truth…”
everything you write represents how i feel at the moment, i just want to reblog the shit out of everything you write, the girl you write about is very lucky :)))!!
Anonymous
thank you that means alot and, if you ask me im the lucky one to have met a girl like her
why do you love her so much?
Anonymous
because she means more to me then she will ever know. everything she does, says, and thinks just makes me love her all the more. i cant stop smiling around her. she is the only person that can stop me in mid sentence with just a glance, the only one that can make me ignight with lust with a bite of a lip… she isnt perfect, butshes absolutely perfect for me…
you have no clue how much this aplies
i know i know…
i wasnt trying to be a man i was just hurt… so fucking hurt. i know your strong and im glad you can get through this as you say… im not strong and ii dont want to give up the feelings i have for you, i dont ever want to… and i know its better for the both of you i get it, and im glad you two are getting along… but i will still love you, i will still want you and honestly i dont ever want to stop.. i miss you, i love you, and its hard sleeping without hearing an angel wisper i love you in your ear… i love you
